I’ve never before questioned my motivation for helping someone, but recent events have caused me to do so. I recommended an acquaintance for a job simply because I would do so for anyone that I knew. This is a new feeling for me. I confess that I find the thought distressing.

I saw on facebook that someone I knew was looking for a job. This is a person whom I had not seen (only spoken to online recently) in about 10 years. I told her that My place of employment was hiring and put in a recommendation for her once she had the online app filled out. Having then felt satisfied for helping someone who deserved it, I went about my day. This was last weekend.

Last night, I had a most surprising dream about this person. I was extremely surprised. I had never before thought of her in that way. Had a subconscious desire to be with this person colored my motivation for helping her get a job? Or is this a new desire created by my own loneliness and need to connect with someone of the opposite sex? I am unsure, but I would certainly be interested in the opinions of those who know me. What say you?

“Far better it is to dare mighty things, to win glorious triumphs, even though checkered by failure, than to take rank with those poor spirits who neither enjoy nor suffer much, because they live in the gray twilight that knows neither victory nor defeat.”
-Danish Proverb

Well I can’t say life has been treating me badly, but I wish it were a bit better. No progress with either of the two ladies I have found myself interested in. Work is ok (not great).

I did get my head bitten off for the crime of offering assistance to my roomie. He got all bent out of shape for no reason whatsoever. he recently got into a car accident that fucked the right side headlight and turn signal on his Explorer so I found dirt cheap replacements on ebay and tried to show him. he got all pissed off and yelled at me. W.T.F? I wasn’t teasing him or patronizing him. Apparently, he has some kind of bullshit childish complex about people offering to help him. I think this is the last straw. I am not renewing my lease with him again. In fact, if I find I can afford to transfer to a 1 bedroom, I will give him 30 days to find some place else to live and go it alone again. I can’t deal with all the bullshit drama. I swear its like I am fucking married or some shit.

Ranting aside, Today, I am buying an hp touchpad 16GB with wifi to replace my nook color. Once I get my friend John to put Android on it, I will sell my nook color. I will probably ask 150 for it, which I believe is a good deal, since I paid 260 for it and it is in very very good shape. Wish me luck.

I got to watch the first episode of the new Beavis and Butthead. It was not near as funny as I remember it to be. Perhaps my sense of humor has matured since I was a teenager. That would be a surprise. I give it a 6.5/10. The Skrillex video was pretty awesome though. (see below)

Enough ranting for now.

“A neurotic is a man who builds a castle in the air. A psychotic is the man who lives in it. A psychiatrist is the man who collects the rent.”
–Jerome Lawrence

I have been reading a couple novels that I have found very entertaining, The first of which is below:

The concept of theBoloIs not one that David Weber came up with, but he does a superb job of writing about them. This is the only novel series/universe that has intelligent, sentient tanks as characters. I find the concept novel (pun intended) and highly entertaining. The image above is the first one he wrote, including 4-5 stories in the Bolo History. The second novel:

is a continuation of one of the better stories in the first novel. If you like sci-fi military thriller, this is for you. it paints a very dark, bleak picture of humanity’s future, one I can very much see as possible. I wont go into much detail, but suffice it to say that there are many darker aspects of human nature that are showcased in gritty detail. Weber is a visionary and is certainly deserving of his status as a best-selling author. I highly recommend both of these novels. In the first one, there is a story about very real love between a haggard war veteran and the Bolo he commands. As strange a concept as this may seem, it is written in such a way as to make it believable. Indeed, I even found myself rooting for the two of them. Very good stuff. Sorry for the lack of content in this little review, I did not wish to include too many spoilers. Read them and tell me what you think.

Does anyone else feel like they have more than one Monday to their work week? It often feels this way to me. The first 2-3 days seem to drag on and on. By around 2 or so I am usually pretty antsy. By 3, when its time to go, I feel like this:

As if I am ready to throw off the yoke of oppression and embrace the freedom of going home. Now, this is not to say that my job is oppressive (its not), but I am just happy to be able to go home.

Sadly, today is the season finale of Burn Notice and Suits, so that means there will be exactly jack shit to watch, as far as tv shows are concerned, for weeks or even months. The rest of what is on now blows goats, especially reality TV. This is the worst drivel that could be allowed on TV. Reality TV is populated by trolls and uncultured philistines who should not be allowed to breed, let alone further reinforce the world’s bad opinion about our country. Look at Jersey Shore. Those are not people. They are troglodytes that somehow escaped the underworld and allow their debase, hedonistic stupidity to be broadcast for the world to see. As far as I am concerned, Hurricane Irene was mother nature trying to cancel that show. Too bad she failed.

I suppose that’s enough ranting for now. Back to work with me.

“Its too bad stupidity isn’t painful” – Anton LaVey

I have been incredibly bored lately. Tuesdays and Wednesdays have been completely devoid of any tv shows worth watching (at least until NCIS is back later this year), so I get home and don’t have any tv shows to watch online. Yesterday, I watched a couple DVD’s I borrowed from my roomie: Constantine and The A-Team. Both awesome, but for different reasons. Last night, I watched Burn Notice streaming from live TV (that can’t be legal lol) and today @ lunch at work, I will likely be watching Suits. I like this show a lot. The characters are well written and well acted, the story is engaging and its not too “hipster” (I really would not watch it if it was).

On a side note, I am looking forward to the MTG (Magic: The Gathering) booster draft this weekend on Saturday. My friend Micah and I usually go every week. Most weeks I get pretty well trounced. Last week, I beat my first two opponents soundly, but the third one just walked all over me. It was a bit disheartening. I hope I am able to draft something effective this week as well.

I suppose I’ve gone on long enough. If I even still have readers, I hope I didn’t bore you too much.

“All the world’s a stage, And all the men and women merely players. They have their exits and their entrances; And one man in his time plays many parts.”
- William Shakespeare

Thus far, no one has bothered me and its been a rather slow morning here at work. I had a couple of donuts for breakfast (with milk) and have been sitting here chatting people up via an internal messenger. What we’ve been talking about (mostly) is an upcoming game, Star Wars: The Old Republic.

From what I have seen and read thus far, this game is very promising. Just writing this, I have music from Star Wars going through my head. Last night I watched a video on G4 TV’s site, a 47 minute panel from Comic Con where they talk about all sorts of info revealed about the new game. I’d recommend checking it out.

Just the fact that they have over 900 voice actors for the English version alone impresses me. I have always hated scrolling through text and loved the story of a good game. Bioware has always been a leader at delivering this type of content. I’ve loved this company ever since Baldur’s Gate. Their mastery of Story Progression and ability to really draw you in and make you actually care about what happens is second to none.

Well, I suppose that’s enough fanboy gushing for now. Stay Tune for more.

I know, its been a long time since I’ve said anything here. I’ve been lazy, so sue me. Life has been crazy for a while. My car died on me, then I got a used pickup truck and 2 weeks into owning it discovered that it was a lemon. It has a very bad head gasket leak and driving it every day this way is just putting a lot of wear and strain on the engine. However, thanks to a close friend helping me out, I am getting a re-manufactured engine installed starting on Friday, June 17th. I wont go into the details on price, but let us just say it was a very good deal that I found/negotiated. I’ve got a re-manufactured engine now and the car truck is running fine.

The next thing of note is that I seem to be getting single out and targeted for harassment by one of the graveyard shift sups, for the last couple months. He is constantly being a dick to me. He has twisted the spirit of the rules here to write me up twice and forced me to move from my comfortable desk twice (I moved once, got settled in at a new desk and was forced to move again). He has purposely sat people in places I like to sit and instructed them not to move or swap keyboards (I can barely type on and ergonomic one and often trade for a standard one) and generally gives me a hard time for no reason that makes any sense to me. I have never seen him bother anyone else. It is getting to the point where my willpower to resist exploding and telling him off is beginning to wear thin. I know if I do this I will get sent home and possibly suspended. I am going to talk to my direct sup one more time about this. If he can’t get this guy to leave me alone, I am going to move my shift up 2 hours so he is leaving when I get here. It is getting to the point where I seriously hate this guy. I just can’t take much more of this bullshit.

So, this morning at work, the second floor people are now sitting on the 4th floor, due to there being no sup down there. I am being friendly with the ones that happen to be close to me, making casual harmless conversation, and two of them get up and move to the other side of the building. I then get bitched at by a supervisor about not making chit chat. WTF. I have been nothing but polite and friendly and this is the reward I get? This is complete bullshit. AND, they just got up and left, moved to other desks like I am some kind of fucking leper. What the fuck did I do to deserve that? I am hurt and angry beyond words right now.

My posts have been getting few and far between. I’m sorry about that. I’ve felt less and less inclined to come here and post, though I am unsure as to why. So the following is am update on my life.

Yes, ladies, I am still single. Not for lack of trying, but it is what it is. I am still hanging out with my friends on the weekends, I still work the same hours at the same place, still drive the same car and still live in the same apartment. My life is rather boring. I’ve been catching up on the third season of Merlin, another BBC show, now being current.

Its a bit like Smallville, but for Arthurian legend. From those that have see it that I know, You either love it or hate it, no middle ground. I like it a lot though. Just take it for what it is and enjoy yourself. However, everyone being completely oblivious to all the magic going on around them does get a bit tiresome.

I got a Printer for my PC, 32 plus tax at walmart. It also has a flatbed scanner on it and can print photos. I am sure I will find more uses for it than merely printing character sheets.

I started playing a new game recently, Lord of The Rings Online. Though its built a bit like DDO (Dungeons & Dragons Online), its a bit prettier, has a much richer story and world. I like the classes, the races and the crafting. Its currently free to play, so feel free to join me on Darrowdelf.

I suppose that’s all I have to say right now. Stay tuned for more.

Thanks to freak food poisoning and the “Gator flu going around at work, I was sick 4 days out of the last 10. This was not fun. I will spare you the details but suffice it to say that the stomach pain was so bad, at one point, that I bummed a vicodin off my roommate just so I could get a few hours of sleep. It took me 3 days to get over the fever and headaches that came with it. today, I am very sore, almost all of my abdomen, from 3 days of tossing and turning. I am too broke to buy any medicine, until tomorrow, so I just have to tough it out. I took about an hour’s nap when I got home from work, this helped to loosen up some of the muscles in my back. Last night, I couldn’t get comfortable enough to sleep in my own bed, being forced to catch about 4-5 hours of interrupted sleep in the recliner in the living room.

On top of all this, the last week at work has been hell, do to someone with admin rights clicking the wrong link and getting our network infected with a nasty virus. We upgraded all the PC’s and have lost all my passwords twice. my windows profile was gone too. fun. Our internal messenger has been on the fritz today. It’s being such a tease. One minute, working fine, “hey I’m here, lets connect and chat”, the next gone, “screw you I have a headache. I suggested that someone feed the thing some poetry and flowers to keep it happy but I don’t think anyone did.